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he could not abide any noise. And so they would ATTEN. That is another bad sign indeed, for serve them time after time, till at last they were crying to God for mercy is one of the first signs of discouraged from coming to see him any more. repentance. When Paul lay repenting of his sin 5. He was so hardened now in this time of his upon his bed, the Holy Ghost said of him, “Behold sickness, that he would talk, when his companions he prayeth.' Ac. ix. 11.

But he that hath not the came unto him, to the disparagement of those good first signs of repentance, it is a sign he hath none men, and of their good doctrine too, that of love of the other, and so indeed none at all. I do not did come to sce him, and that did labour to convert say but there may be crying where there may be bim. 6. When these good men went away from no sign of repentance. “They cried,' says David,

' him he would never say, Pray, when will you be *unto the Lord, but he answered them not;' but pleased to come again, for I have a desire to more that he would have done if their cry had been the of your company and to hear more of your good fruit of repentance. Pe xviii. 41. But, I

say, instruction ? No, not a word of that, but when may cry and yet have no repentance, be sure they they were going would scarce bid thein drink, or have none that cry not at all. It is said in Job,

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for your good company and good they cry not when he bindeth them,' Job xxxvi. 13 ; instruction. 7. His talk in his sickness with his that is, because they have no repentance; no recompanions would be of the world, as trades, pentance, no cries; false repentance, false cries; houses, lands, great men, great titles, great places, true repentance, true cries. outward prosperity or outward adversity, or some WISE. I know that it is as possible for a man to such carnal thing. By all which I conclude that forbear crying that hath repentance, as it is for a he did not desire a sense and sight of his sin, that man to forbear groaning that feeleth deadly pain. he miglit repent and be saved.

He that looketh into the book of Psalms, where ATTEN. It must needs be so as you say, if these repentance is most lively set forth even in its true things be true that you have asserted of him. And and proper effects, shall their find that crying, I do the rather believe them, because I think you strong crying, hearty crying, great crying, and dare not tell a lie of the dead.

incessant crying, hath been the fruits of repentWISE. I was one of them that went to him and ance; but none of this had this Mr. Badman, therethat beheld his carriage and manner of way, and fore he died in his sins. this is a true relation of it that I have given you. That crying is an inseparable effect of repent

Atten. I am satisfied. But pray, if you can, ance, is seen in these scriptures— Have mercy show me now, by the Word, what sentence of God upon me, O God; according unto the multitude of doth pass upon such men.

thy tender mercies, blot out my transgressions.' WISE. Why, the man that is thus averse to re- Ps. li. 1. • O Lord, rebuke me not in thine anger, pentance, that desires not to hear of his sins that neither chasten me in thy hot displeasure. Have he might repent and be saved, is said to be a man mercy upon me, O Lord, for I am weak: 0 Lord, that saith unto God, ' Depart from me, for I desire heal me, for my bones are vexed. My soul is also not the knowledge of thy ways.' Job xxi. 14. He is sore vexed, but thou, O Lord, how long? Return, a man that says in his heart and with his actions, O Lord, deliver my soul: O save me for thy mercies' • I have loved strangers (sins) and after them will sake.' Ps. vi. 1–4. O Lord, rebuke me not in thy I go.' Je. ii. 25. He is a man that shuts his eyes, wrath, neither chasten me in thy hot displeasure ; stops his ears, and that turneth his spirit against for thine arrows stick fast in me, and thy hand God. Zec. vii. 11, 12. Ac. xxviii. 26, 27. Yea, he is the presseth me sore. There is no soundness in my man that is at enmity with God, and that abhors flesh because of thine anger, neither is there any him with his soul.

rest in my bones, because of my sin. For mine Atten. What other sign can you give me that iniquities are gone over mino head; as a heavy Nir. Badman died without repentance ?

burden they are too heavy for me. My wounds Wise. Why, he did never heartily cry to God stink and are corrupt, because of my

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mercy all the time of his affliction. I am troubled, I am bowed down greatly, I go he dicu impeni- True, when sinking fits, stitches, or mourning all the day long. My loins are filled

pains took hold upon him, then he with a loathsome disease, and there is no soundness would say, as other carnal men used to do, Lord, in my flesh. I am feeble and sore broken; I have help me; Lord, strengthen me; Lord, deliver me, roared by reason of the disquietness of my heart.' and the like. But to cry to God for mercy, that Ps. xxxviii. 1–8. he did not, but lay, as I hinted before, as if he I might give you a great number more of the never had sinned.

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how they were, what they felt, and whether they 1. An old tippling custom, more honoured in the breach than cried or no when repentance was wrought in them. in the observance.-(ED.)

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pangs of guilt are upon him, to forbear praying, ' added to the church;' that they “were of one heart as it is for a woman, when pangs of travail are and of one soul;' and the like. Ac. ii. 44–47; iv. 23, 32. upon her, to forbear crying. If all the world Now if it be objected that Mr. Badman was sick, should tell me that such a man hath repentance, and so could not go to the godly, yet he had a yet if he is not a praying man I should not be tongue in his head, and could, had he had a heart, persuaded to believe it.

have spoken to some to call or send for the godly to ATTEN. I know no reason why you should, for come to him. Yea, he would have done so; yea, there is nothing can demonstrate that such a man the company of all others, especially his fellowhath it. But pray, Sir, what other sign have you sinners, would, even in every appearance of them by which you can prove that Mr. Badman died in before him, have been a burden and a grief unto his sins, and so in a state of damnation?

him. His heart and affection standing bent to Wise. I have this to prove it. Those who were good, good companions would have suited him best.

his old and sinful companions in the But his companions were his old associates, his Fourth proof that he died impenit- time of his health, were those whose delight was in them, therefore his heart and soul

company and carnal talk he most were yet ungodly. delighted in in the time of his sickness. I did ATTEN. Pray, how was he when he drew near occasionally hint this before, but now I make it an his end; for, I perceive, that what you say of him argument of his want of grace, for where there is now hath reference to him and to bis actions at the indeed a work of grace in the heart, that work beginning of his sickness? Then he could endure doth not only change the heart, thoughts, and company and much talk; besides, perhaps then he desires, but the conversation also; yea, conversa thought he should recover and not die, as aftertion and company too.

When Paul had a work wards he had cause to think, when he was quite of grace in his soul he essayed to join himself to wasted with pining sickness, when he was at the the disciples. He was for his old companions in grave's mouth. But how was he, I say, when he their abominations no longer. He was now a dis- was, as we say, at the grave's mouth, within a ciple, and was for the company of disciples. “And step of death, when he saw and knew, and could

. * he was with them coming in and going out at not but know, that shortly he must die, and appear Jerusalem.' Ac. ix. 27, 28.

before the judgment of God? ATTEN. I thought something when I heard you Wise. Why, there was not any other alteration make mention of it before. Thought I, this is a in him than what was made by his shrewd sign that he had not grace in his heart. disease upon his body. Sickness, you Birds of a feather, thought I, will flock together. know, will alter the body, also pains If this man was one of God's children he would and stitches will make men groan ; but for his herd with God's children, his delight would be with mind he had no alteration there. His mind was and in the company of God's children. As David the same, his heart was the same. He was the said, 'I am a companion of all them that fear thee, self-same Mr. Badman still. Not only in name and of them that keep thy precepts.' Ps. cxix. 63. but conditions, and that to the very day of his

W13E. You say well, for what fellowship hath death ; yea, so far as could be gathered to the very he that believeth with an infidel? And although moment in which he died. it be true that all that join to the godly are not Atten. Pray, how was he in his death? Was godly, yet they that shall inwardly choose the com- death strong upon him? or did he die with ease, pany of the ungodly and open profane, rather than quietly? the company of the godly, as Mr. Badman did, WISE. As quietly as a lamb. There seemed not surely are not godly men, but profane. He was, to be in it, to standers by, so much He died like a as I told you, out of his element when good men as a strong struggle of nature. And did come to visit him; but then he was where he as for his mind, it seemed to be wholly at quiet. would be, when he had his vain companions about But, pray, why do you ask me this question? him. Alas! grace, as I said, altereth all, heart, ATTEN. Not for mine own sake, but for others. life, company, and all; for by it the heart and man For there is such an opinion as this The opinion of is made new. And a new heart and a new man among the ignorant, that if a man dies,

the “ignorant must have objects of delighit that are new, and like as they call it, like a lamb, that is, ner of dying. himself; ‘Old things are passed away;' why? For quietly, and without that consternation of mind ‘all things are become new.' ? Co. v. 27. Now, if all that others show in their death, they conclude, things are become new, to wit, heart, mind, thoughts, and that beyond all doubt, that such a one is gone desires, and delights, it followeth by consequence to heaven, and is certainly escaped the wrath to that the company must be answerable ; hence it is come. said, that they that believed were together;' that they went to their own company;' that they were

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CHAPTER XIX.

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ones that do such kind of deeds. I say, no men(FUTURE HAPPINESS NOT TO BE HOPED FROM A QUIET tion made in Holy Writ of any others, but such HARDENED DEATH.]

that murder themselves. WISE. There is no judgment to be made by a And this is a sore judgment of God upon men, quiet death, of the eternal state of him that so when God shall, for the sins of such, give them up dieth. Suppose that one man should die quietly, to be their own executioners, or rather to execute another should die suddenly, and a third should his judgment and anger upon themselves. And How we must die under great consternation of spirit, let me earnestly give this caution to sinners. Take judge whether mense dieettei no man can judge of their eternal con- heed, Sirs, break off your sins, lest God serves you

dition by the manner of any of these as he served Mr. Badman's brother ; that is, lest kinds of deaths. He that dies quietly, suddenly, he gives you up to be your own murderers. or under consternation of spirit, may go to heaven, Atten. Now you talk of this; I did once know or may go to hell; no man can tell whether a man a man, a barber, that took his own

ST goes, by any such manner of death. The judg- razor and cut his own throat, and then ment, therefore, that we make of the eternal con- put his head out of his chamber window, to show dition of a man must be gathered from another the neighbours what he had done, and after a little consideration, to wit, Did the man die in his sins? while died. did he die in unbelief? did he die before he was WISE. I can tell you a more dreadful thing than born again? then he has gone to the devil and hell, this; I mean as to the manver of doing though he died never so quietly. Again, Was the the fact. There was, about twelve years man a good man? had he faith and holiness? was since, a man that lived at Brafield, by Northampton, he a lover and a worshipper of God by Christ, named John Cox, that murdered him

The story of according to his Word? Then he is gone to God self; the manner of his doing of it was and heaven, how suddenly, or in what consternation thus. He was a poor man, and had for some time of mind soever he died. But Mr. Badnian was been sick, and the time of his sickness was about naught, his life was evil, his ways were evil, evil the beginning of hay-time, and taking too many to bis end. He therefore went to hell and to the thoughts how he should live afterwards, if he lost devil, how quietly soever he died.

his present season of work, he fell into deep despair Indeed there is, in some cases, a judgment to about the world, and cried out to his wife the mornbe made of a man's eternal condition by the man- ing before he killed himself, saying, We are unner of the death he dieth. As, suppose now a man done. But quickly after, he desired his wife to should murder himself, or live a wicked life, and depart the room, because, said he, I will see if I

after that die in utter despair ; these can get any rest; so she went out; but he, instead judgeofu man's men, without doubt, do both of them of sleeping, quickly took his razor, and therewithi by the manner go to hell. And here I will take an cut up a great hole in his side, out of which he

occasion to speak of two of Mr. Bad- pulled and cut off some of his guts, and threw them, man's brethren, for you know I told you before with the blood, up and down the chamber. But that he had brethren, and of the manner of their this not speeding of him so soon as he desired, he death. One of them killed himself, and the other, took the same razor and therewith cut his own after a wicked life, died in utter despair. Now, I throat. His wife, then hearing of bin sigh and should not be afraid to conclude of both these, that fetch his wind short, came again into the room to they went by and through their death to hell. him, and seeing what he had done, she ran out and

ATTEN. Pray tell me concerning the first, how called in some neighbours, who came to him where he made away with himself?

he lay in a bloody manner, frightful to behold. Wise. Why, he took a knife and cut his own Then said one of them to him, Ah! John, what throat, and immediately gave up the ghost and have you done? Are you not sorry for what you died. Now, what can we judge of such a man's have done? He answered roughly, It is too late to condition, since the Scripture saith, •No murderer be sorry. Then, said the same person to him again, hath eternal life,' &c., but that it must be con- Ah! John, pray to God to forgive thee this bloody cluded that such a one is gone to hell.

act of thine, At the hearing of which exhortation murderer, a self-murderer; and ho is the worst he seemed much offended, and in an angry manner murderer, one that slays his own body and soul." said, Pray! and with that flung himself away to

the wall, and so, after a few gasps, died desperately. • The dialogues between Hopeful and Christian in Doubting When he had turned him of his back to the wall, Castle admirably prove the wickedness of suicide. The unlet- the blood ran out of his belly as out of a bowl, and tcred tinker triumphs over all the subtleties of the Dean of St; soaked quite through the bed to the boards, and Paul's. See Pilgrim's Progress, p. 140, and notes, compared with the icroduction, p. 74.- (Ed.)

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and worshipper of God by Christ, according to his Many other such dreadful things might be told Word, may die in consternation of spirit; for Satan you, but these are enough, and too many too, if will not be wanting to assault good men upon their God, in his wisdom, had thought necessary to pre- deathbed, but they are secured by the Word and vent them.

power of God; yea, and are also helped, though Atten. This is a dreadful story. And I would with much agony of spirit, to exercise themselves to God that it might be a warning to others, to in faith and prayer, the which he that dieth in instruct them to fear before God, and pray, lest he despair can by no means do. But let us return to gives them

up to do as John Cox hath done. For Mr. Badman, and enter further discourse of the surely self-murderers cannot go to heaven; and, manner of his death. therefore, as you have said, he that dieth by his ATTEN. I think you and I are both of a mind; own hands, is certainly gone to hell. But speak for just now I was thinking to call you back to a word or two of the other man you mentioned. him also. And pray now, since it is your own

Wise What? of a wicked man dying in despair? motion to return again to him, let us discourse a Arren. Yes, of a wicked man dying in despair. little more of his quiet and still death. Further

Wise. Well then. This Mr. Badman's other WISE. With all my heart. You Of dying in de brother was a very wicked man, both know we were speaking before of the spair.

in lieart and life ; I say in heart, be- manner of Mr. Badman's death; how that he died cause he was so in life, nor could anything reclaim still and quietly; upon which

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made observahim; neither good men, good books, good examples, tion that the common people conclude, that if a nor God's judgments. Well, after he had lived a man dies quietly, and as they call it, like a lamh, great while in his sins, God smote him with a sick. he is certainly gone to heaven; when, alas, if a ness, of which he died. Now in his sickness his wicked man dies quietly, if a man that has all his conscience began to be awakened, and he began to days lived in notorious sin, dieth quietly; his quiet roar out of his ill-spent life, insomuch that the dying is so far off from being a sign of his being town began to ring of him. Now, when it was saved, that it is an uncontrollable proof of his noised about, many of the neighbours came to see damnation. This was Mr. Badman's case, he lived him, and to read by him, as is the common way wickedly even to the last, and then went quietly with some; but all that they could do, could not out of the world; therefore Mr. Badman is gone abate his terror, but he would lie in his bed gnash- to hell.

ing of his teeth, and wringing of his ATTEN. Well, but since you are upon it, and

wrists, concluding upon the damnation also so confident in it, to wit, that a man that lives of his soul, and in that horror and despair he died; a wicked life till he dies, and then dies quietly, is not calling upon God, but distrusting in his mercy, gone to hell; let me see what show of proof you and blaspheming of his name.

have for this your opinion. Arten. This brings to my mind a man that a Wise. My first argument is drawn from the friend of mine told me of. He had been a wicked necessity of repentance. No man can He that after a liver; so when he came to die, he fell into despair; be saved except he repents, nor can

quietly, that is, and having concluded that God had | he repent that sees not, that knows Jun

no mercy for him, he addressed him- not that he is a sinner; and he that self to the devil for favour, saying, Good devil, be knows himself to be a sinner will, I provf. good unto me.

will warrant him, be molested for the time by that Wise. This is almost like Saul, who being for- knowledge. This, as it is testified by all the saken of God, went to the witch of Endor, and so Scriptures, so it is testified by Christian experience. to the devil for help. 1 Sa. xxviii. But, alas, should He that knows himself to be a sinner is molested, I set myself to collect these dreadful stories, it I especially if that knowledge comes not to him until

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the greatest signs of a damnable a sigu I must confess I am no admirer of sick-bed re- state.

re- pentanco, for I think verily it is sel- WISE. So it is. Therefore, when God would

dom good for any thing. But I say, show the greatness of his anger against sin and anything. he that hath lived in sin and profane- sinners in one word, he saith, They are 'joined to ness all his days, as Mr. Badman did, and yet idols; let them alone.' Ho. iv. 17. Let them alone, shall die quietly, that is, without repentance steps that is, disturb them not; let them go on without in betwixt his life and death, he is assuredly gone control; let the devil enjoy them peaceably, let to hell, and is damned.

him carry them out of the world unconverted Atten. This does look like an argument indeed; quietly. This is one of the sorest of judgments, for repentance must come, or else we must go to and bespeaketh the burning anger of God against hell-fire; and if a lewd liver shall, I mean that so sinful men. See also when you come home, the continues till the day of his death, yet go out of fourteenth verse of the fourth chapter of Hosea, the world quietly, it is a sign that he died without · I will not punish your daughters when they comrepentance, and so a sign that he is damned. mit whoredom. I will let them alone, they shall

Wise. I am satisfied in it, for my part, and that live and die in their sins. But, from the necessity and nature of repentance. It Thirdly. My third argument is drawn from that is necessary, because God calls for it, and will not saying of Christ, “He hath blinded

Third proof pardon sin without it. •Except ye repent, ye shall their eyes, and hardened their heart; all likewise perish?' La. xiii, 1–7. This is that which that they should not see with their eyes, nor unGod hath said, and he will prove but a fool-hardy derstand with their heart, and be converted, and I man that shall get think to go to heaven and glory should heal them.' Jn. xii. 40. There are three without it. Repent, for 'the axe is laid unto the things that I will take notice of from these root of the trees, therefore every tree which bring- words. eth not forth good fruit,' but no good fruit can be 1. The first is, that there can be no conversion where there is not sound repentance, shall be to God where the eye is darkened, and

First proof. • hewn down, and cast into the fire.' Mat. iii. 10. the heart hardened. The eye must This was Mr. Badman's case, he had attending of first be made to see, and the heart to break and him a sinful life, and that to the very last, and yet relent under and for sin, or else there can be no died quietly, that is, without repentance; he is conversion. He hath blinded their eyes, and gone to hell and is damned. For the nature of hardened their heart, lest they should see, and repentance, I have touched upon that already, and understand and’so be converted.' And this was slowed that it never was where a quiet death is clearly Mr. Badman's case; he lived a wicked life, the immediate companion of a sinful life; and and also died with his eyes shut, and heart hardtherefore Mr. Badman is gone to hell.

ened, as is manifest, in that a sinful life was joined Secondly. My second argument is drawn from with a quiet death; and all for that he should not

that blessed word of Christ, While the be converted, but partake of the fruit of his sinful Second proof

strong man armed keeps the house, life in hell-fire. • his goods are in peace,' till a stronger than he 2. The second thing that I take notice of from But the strong man armed kept these words is, that this is a dispensa

Second proof Mr. Badman's house, that is, his heart, and soul, tion and manifestation of God's anger and body, for he went from a sinful life quietly out against a man for his sin. When God is angry of this world. The stronger did not disturb by with men, I mean, when he is so angry with them, intercepting with sound repentance betwixt his this among many is one of the judgments that he sinful life and his quiet death. Therefore Mr. giveth them up unto, to wit, to blindness of mind, Badman is gone to hell.

and hardness of heart, which he also suffereth to The strong man armed is the devil, and quiet- accompany them till they enter in at the gates of ness is his security. The devil never fears losing | denth. And then, and there, and not short of

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