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asleep ; I sighed and was silent; my there that knows the dreadful contrast servants would have spoken to me, of leaping, at once, from excess of but I commanded silence; I threw bliss to excess of misery, and of passmyself upon a bed, and ordered them, ing the immense space without one at the same time, to leave me and re- moment to prepare for it. Yesterday! tire to rest. After a few hours repose, even yesterday, at the feet of an adored worse than the agitation of the pre- wife. I was the happiest of beings; it ceding evening, I arose before it was was love who had subjected me to his yet day; and traversing, softly, the laws, and who held me in his chains ; apartments, I approached the chamber his tyrannic power was the work of of Sophia ; there, unable to refrain, I my tenderness, and I was happy even proceeded, with the most despicable beneath his rigours. Why was I not meanness, towards the door, the permitted to pass the course of ages threshold of which I bathed with a in this too delightful state; to esteem, torrent of tears, and covered with a respect, cherish, yet murmur'at his thousand kisses; then, retiring with tyranny; to demand, implore, suppliall the precaution and dread of a thief, cate unceasingly ; desire, and never I left the house, determined never aught obtain. Those hours, those more to enter it.
happy hours of wished return, of unHere finished my short but fierce certain expectation, were equal to folly; and I once more returned to those when possessed. But now! common sense. I thought, even, that hated ! deceived ! dishonoured ! hopeI did no more than what I ought to less, and without resource: I possess do in yielding, at first, to the passion not even the consolation of daring to which I could not conquer ; in order, form a wish! I start back, filled with afterwards, to be able to govern it horror at sight of the object which when its first effervescence had sub- must supply the place of ihat which sided. The impulse which had guided once possessed so many charms for me having disposed me to tenderness, me! To contemplate Sophia debased the
rage, which, till then, had trans- and despicable! What eyes can endure ported me, now gave place to sad- this profanation! My greatest tor-, Dess, and I began sufficiently to pe- inent did not consist in reflecting on netrate the botiom of my heart to see my misery; it was excited by mingengraved there, in indelible characters, ling the idea of shame with the object -the most profound affliction. I, hows that had caused it. This wretched ever, continued to walk, hastening, and distracted picture was the only with all possible rapidity, froin that one which I could not support. dreadful place, without inaking one On the preceding evening my turn. I lett the city, and entering the gloomy and desperate grief had saved first public road, suffered myself to me from this idea : I thought only of pursue the path with a slow pace, suffering. But, in proportion as the which bespoke extreme debility and sentiment of my wrongs began, as it humiliation. As the new born day were, to arrange itself in my heart, displayed the surrounding objects, and impelled me to take a retrospect imagination pictured to me a new of their source, I, spite of myself, reheaven, another universe, and another traced the fatal object. The resentearth ; all was changed to me; I was ment which I manifested, when we no longer the same as on the preced- parted, too strongly marked the uning evening'; or rather, I was no worthy propensity which would have morc; it was my own death I had to led me back. The hatred which she weep. Oh! how many delightful '
merited hurt me less than the disdain images rushed upon my heart, already which ought to accomp..ny it; and loaded with avguish, and compelled it that which most: I felt was not so to expand itself to them, which over- much the idea of renouncing her, as whelmed it with vain regrets. The that of being compelled to despise remembrance of all my past joys her. heightened the keenness of iny losses, My first reflections with regard to and occasioned me, at that instant, her were bitter. If the infidelity of greater torments than they bad ever an ordinary woman is denominated a afforded me pleasure. Ah! who is crime, what appellation then can we
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affix to hers. Vulgar souls, in acting of vice and misery into which you basely, yet are not debased ; they still have been precipitated yonrself.remain as they were before; there · Alas! she had been always circumcan be no ignominy in it, for there spect but for thee, and would always was no antecedent nobleness; the have studied and pronoted thy hapadulteries of women of fashion are piness. merely fashionable intrigues : but So- Ob Emilius ! thou hast lost her! phia an adultress is the most odious of to hate yourself and pity her is what all monsters ; the distance from what you ought to do; but what right have she is to what she was is immense ; you to despise her? Art thou thyself 110--there is no degradation, no crime, irreproachable. Has not the world that can be equivalent to bers. censured thy conduct? It is true you
But I, (I continued), I, who accuse bave 'not partaken of her infidelity, her, and who
have but too much right, but you have, in a great degree, sanc(since it is I who am injured), by tioned it by ceasing to honour ber what right do ! so severely judge her virtue! Hast thou not, too, in a great before being judged myselt; before degree, caused it by living in places endeavouring to ascertain how far I where all that bears the mark of homay reproach myself for her aberra- nesty is held in derision; where wotions?' You accuse her of not being men would blush to be thought chaste; the same? O Emilius! and hast thou and where the only need of virtue not too changed? How different from their own sex is raillery and inhave I seen thee towards her in that credulity. The honour which you great city to what you formerly were! have not violated, has it been exposed Ah! her inconstancy was the conse to the same temptations, to the same quence of your own. She bad vowed risks? Have you received, like her, ever to be faithful to thee; and you that temperament of fire, that warmhad sworn ever to adore her. You ness of constitution, which produce abandoned her, and yet would have both the greatest virtues and the greather still the same; you treated her est faults? Have you a form so exwith contempt, and yet you would have quisitely formed for love; so exposed lier bonour you! It was thy coolness, to perils from its charms, and to thy indifference, thy forgetfulness, temptations from its senses! Oh! that tore you from her heart! We how much is the fate of such a handmust not cease to be amiable if we some woman to be mourned - Wbat tvish always to be beloved. She has contests had she not unceasingly to violated her vows only froni thy ex- sustain against others, and against am; e; had you never neglected her, herself ?-- What invincible, courage, she bad never deceived you. what heroic firmness, what intrepid
What cause for complaint did she determination does she stand in nerd ever give you in that retreat where of?-What dangerous victories has you found her, and from whence you she not every day to obtain, and of all ought never to have taken her. In these triumphs no witness but Heaven her tenderness for you what coolness and ber own heart! And yet, atter did you ever remark? Did she ever so many years thus passed in suffering, beg of you to take her from that hap- in incessant struggles and conquests, py place? You know it!' She quit. One moment of weakness, one single ied it with the greatest regret and moment of remissness and forgetfulsurrow. The tears which she there bess sullies, for ever, that irreproach. slied, how unuch more pleasure did able life, and dishonours so many vir. they afford her than all the wanton tues! Unfortunate woman! Alas! sports of the metropolis. She there one moment's indulgence has caused passed her innocent life in the pure all thy misfortunes and mine. Yes; study of increasing the happiness of thy heart is still pure; everything thine ; but, she loved you more than convinces me of it; it is too evident her own tranquillity ; alter having in for me to be deceived. And who vain endeavoured io retain you, she knows in what subtle snares the per. quitled it to follory you; you it was tidious arts of an abandoned woman, then, who, from the bosom of peace and one jealous of thy virtues, might and virtue, dragged her to the golph surprise thy innocent simplicity
Have I not seen her regret ? Have I bourers, and all his ancestors had been not seen repentance in ber eyes ? - so time out of mind. Was it not thy sadness which brought Young Brown must have followed me to myself and thy feet ?—Was it the profession of these ancestors, had not thy grief, thy inexpressive grief, not his parents conceived so high air which revived in me all my tender- idea of his rising talents, as to inspire ness? Ah! that was not the artful them with the resolution of bestowconduct of a woman who deceives ing on him an education superior to her husband, and afterwards regards their condition ; and this education, her treachery in the pleasure ! as is well known from the frequency Then beginning to reflect more
and the cheapness of schools in Scoi. particularly on her conduct, and on
land, it was no very difficult matter to her astonishing delaration, what were give bim. not my sensations when I beheld that Happy country! though nature bas modest and timid woman suffering her dealt wiggardly with thee, though thy ingenuousness and candour to over
climate be unkind, and thy soil but ill come her shame; in beholding her repay the cultivator's toil; yet are thy reject an esteem which the heart be- inhabitants 'happy, more happy than lied; disdaining to preserve my con
those of more favoured regions; for tidence and her reputation at the ex. virtue and pure and simple manners pense of concealing a fault which are theirs, and happiness is insepanothing forced her to avow; in rece- sable from virtue. The feelings, the ding from caresses which she had honest inclinations with which nature, rejected, and fearing to usurp my
in her sound and healthful state, inpaternal tenderness for a child which spires her children, are still to be was not of my blood. What strength found among thy sons; and the dedid I not admire in that invincible and praved and factitious inclinations, haughty intrepidity which, even at
which nature disavow's, are hitherto the expense of life and honour, would strangers to them. There the parent not suffer her to humble herself to places bis higliest enjoyment in the the degradation of a falshood, but banpiness of his children, and there enabled her, even in vice, to maintain the children strive, with pious emulathe intrepid boldness of virtue. Yes, tion, to shield the declining years of I exclaimed to myself with a secret
Willingly does this pleasure, even in the bosom of iguo- 'parent submit to every privation 10 miny that noble soul maintains all its raise bis offspring to a more envied energy: she is guilty, but not vile; and, as he conceives, happier station she has committed a fault, but she than his own; and the insiances are has not acted basely.
rare, indeed, when this honourable
purpose is sacrificed to the gratifica[To be continued.]
tion of his own appetite. Happy
country! may’st thou be long preThe Life of John Brown: with served in the possession of thy simple Sketches of Scottish Manners.
virtue, and long continue to furnish
examples of honest industry and sichamlet on the borders of the
Let the reader and author here una Lammermuir hills, which divide the derstand one another. The title anfertile plains of East Lothian and Ber: pounced a parrative ; and, behold! a wickshire, in the south of Scotland. disquisition almost in the very outset. Of the genealogy of his family there from a work of this kind the author remain but very scanty memorials, well knows that disquisitions, it pot It was remembered, however, as a sparingly introduced, are welcome to sort of epocha in it, that his great- nosť do cass of riders, The grandfather, by the mother's side, was young maiden, whose heart begins present as a militia man at the battle to flüster at the approach of a faof Sheriffmuir.
voured youth; expecis to beguile his Our hero may properly, however, absence by a tale of love. The suhe called the first distinguished man peramuated man of pleasure exof þis family. His paren's were la pects
to recal his past enjoyments by
a succession of voluptuous images. prematurely pronounce in this place; Even the sage philosopher (and many for the reader will be equally able, more philosophers read novels than with the author, to decide for himself, are willing to own it) expects to for- if he will have the patience to read get, for an hour or two, his accus- on. tomed intellectual exercises, and to Mothers are such important perrecruit his worn-out mind with some. sonages in the first part of the drama thing that may make him laugh or of human life, that it would be inexweep, but never think.
cusable not to dedicate a sentence or Rakes, maidens, and philosophers, two to the delineation of the mother then, the author apostrophises you as of our hero. In her youth even she was, representing the body of novel readers, and justly enough, reckoned homeand he humbly implores your forgive- ly by her neighbours, which, as those neșs. He promises to adhere tờ bis know who have seen the lower ranks narraiive as closely as possible; only of people in Scotland, is saying a great he hopes a little excursion now and deal. "Her looks, good woman, were then may be forgiven him, though by no means improved at the period contrary to the most orthodox rules of our bero's infancy, wben she bad of composition, which condemn every passed her grand climacteric; and, thing into a story that does not strictly accordingly, it was not for her looks conduce to elucidate it. It may be that her husband chiefly valued her. considered that the author had two It was for the soundness of her reliobjects in view-the gratification of gious principles, the strength of her his own vanity and the pleasure of the faith, and fervency of her devotion : reader; he wishes to let it now and her faith was ever unclouded by the then be seen, that, though circum- smallest doubt, which those, who stances have reduced him to rank in claim a right to decide on that subthat class of bistorians, commonly ject, pronounce to be the most meri. called novellists, nature has given him torious kind of faith. Her devotional some claim to rauk among philoso- fervour would often burst forth in phers, who may, for the most part that peculiar kind of groan, well perhaps, without any great breach of known among the orthodox in Scoipropriety, so far as remoteness from land, when Mess John held forth in truín is the criterion, be styled novel. his best style, or when her husband lists. But to our narrative.
happened to be more than ordinarily Our hero, who, as has been said, powerful in his prayers; who would was the son of a labourer, was also an confess that he telt this a great encogonly child; a circumstance, which, in ragement to bim in that holy exmany cases, it is believed, has more ercise. Having an excellent meiory, influence on the child's present than improved by cultivation, she would his future happiness. Being an only refresh her husband, of an evening, child he was, of course, a favourité. with recitations of the most choice He was born, too, under circunstances morsels of a good old version of the rather calculated to increase this par- psalms of King David, or with some tiality; as the birth was a stibject of of the most approved Gospel sonnets
. no small gratulation to both the pa- Women, in this way, are found to be rents, who happened to be united to. of great service, whether war, religether at that period of life when the gion, or whatever else be the darling atmost diligence in the exercise of occupation of a people. In a former the marriage duties is perhaps prudent age. the rade warriors of these borders to ensure success, and to avoid the were cheered by their dames with a ridicule which the world, malicionsly blooly ballad, in the taste of those enough no doubt, is disposed to attach lately edited by Mr. Walter Scott ; to 3 failure.
and their religious descendants are no Under such powerfully predisposing less cheered by them with all maneircumstances, it was almost impos- ner of hymns and spirituai songs. sible that young Brown sboud not As an instance of the scrupulons appear a prodigy of abilities to his exactness wiih which she discharged fond parents. Whether or not he her religious duties, I may mention, werited this opiniou, we must not that when, at certain seasons of ladie
year, her husband was absent during lower Scotch, gained him no small the week, and returned home only in reputation. It must be owned, inthe Saturday evenings, she would, deed, that a rigorous conformity behowever late, insist on the punctual tween the name enounced, and the performance of prayers before enter- letters of which it is composed, is not ing bed, which, when good Benjam.in exacted on these occasions; it is sufBrown was cold, wet, and weary, he ficient that the Israelite get a name sometimes grumbled to do; and, if that he may be known by, and the hour of iwelve was struck before that bears a decent verisimilitude. all this was accomplished, she would Through all this course had young insist on her husband strictly observ- Brown gone, under the instruction of ing that rest which is enjoined to all his mother, when he had little more living creatures on the Lord's day, than finished his fifth year; and it is however warm his affectionate desire no wonder, therefore, that she should might be, until the twenty-four bours conceive the most favourable opinion which were sacred were expired. In of his talents, and that everything this way she was of great service to was to be expected from their proper keep Benjamin firm in the right path; cultivation. and she may well be held forth as an The fond mother anticipated, already, esample to dutiful and conscientious the day when she should hear bim spouses.
thundering from the pulpit against the The rest of the good woman's cha- unrighteous, and thrilling the hearts racter may best be described by ne- of the godly with the consolations of gatives. She had no prominency of Zion. She saw the day when the character but ber religion : she had honours of her son would be reflected no vices. Whether she owed this to back on herself, when an enraplured religion, or temperament, or the cus- audience would point to her as his tom of the country, I will not take mother, and bail her as happy among upon me to say. She had no very women. great share of penetration; and she Benjamin, her husband, having no had not the least idea of neatness in less ambition, in this respect, iban his her person or her household ; and no wife, and entertaining equally sandoubt she was much indebted for this guine views of his son, they agreed to the custom of the country. that he should, without delar, go to
This was the woman destined to a school in a neighbouring town, observe and draw forth the dawning where he might commence the netalents of our hero; and conscien- cessary course of instruction. tiously, as in all other things, did she Before introducing our hero at set about it. He was scarcely able to school, it may be proper to give some speak when she made a trial of his idea of the objects that had hitherto abilities on the horn-book, the diffi- surrounded him. culties of which he overcame very Burnmil, the hamlet where he had creditably. He went, successively, been born and brought up, consisted through the different gradations in only of two houses or cabins, his tause among the Scotch peasantry with ther's, and that of an old woman who great success. These were, tirst, the lived alone. His prospects without Assembly of Divines Shorter Cate- doors and within were equally rural. chism; then the Proverbs of King The house was divided into two apartSolomon, then the New Testament, ments, by means of two wooden beds, and, lastly, the Chronicles of the which occupied the breadth of the Kings of Juda and Nehemiah. If this house, with the exception of a small course be successfully gone through, passage between them; in one apartå reader is prononnced well near to ment" lived the human beings, aud perfection. It was observed, that of those of the animals more immediateüll the Israelites that came through ly connected with man, the cat and our author's hands, he had a name for dog; the ground of the other aparı. every one of them, which he bestow- ment was fitted up for the cow and ed without hesitation and without the sow, who had every opportunity spelling ; which accompiishinens, as of contemplating, one another, but # iş ip much estimatinn an.ols the were prohibited from all order' kind