o. q. m. Omit quotation marks.
o. a. - Omit accent.
s. 1. Small letter.
1840, 1843, 1845, refer to the editions of those dates.
The earliest form, being widely different from the text, is given below. See also Appendix, "Poe and John Neal."
I HAVE sent for thee, holy friar; (') But 't was not with the drunken hope, Which is but agony of desire
To shun the fate, with which to cope Is more than crime may dare to dream, That I have call'd thee at this hour: Such, father, is not my theme- Nor am I mad, to deem that power Of earth may shrive me of the sin Unearthly pride hath revell'd in I would not call thee fool, old man, But hope is not a gift of thine; If I can hope (O God! I can) It falls from an eternal shrine.
The gay wall of this gaudy tower
Grows dim around me.
I had not thought, until this hour When passing from the earth, that ear Of any, were it not the shade
Of one whom in life I made All mystery but a simple name,
Might know the secret of a spirit
Bow'd down in sorrow, and in shame. - Shame, said'st thou ?
Ay, I did inherit That hated portion, with the fame, The worldly glory, which has shown1 A demon-light around my throne, Scorching my sear'd heart with a pain Not Hell shall make me fear again.
I have not always been as now — The fever'd diadem on my brow I claim'd and won usurpingly —
Ay the same heritage hath given Rome to the Cæsar- this to me; The heirdom of a kingly mind And a proud spirit, which hath striven Triumphantly with human kind.
In mountain air I first drew life; The mists of the Taglay have shed (*) Nightly their dews on my young head; And my brain drank their venom then, When after day of perilous strife With chamois, I would seize his den And slumber, in my pride of power, The infant monarch of the hour For, with the mountain dew by night,
My soul imbibed unhallow'd feeling; And I would feel its essence stealing In dreams upon me while the light Flashing from cloud that hover'd o'er, Would seem to my half closing eye The pageantry of monarchy ! And the deep thunder's echoing roar Came hurriedly upon me, telling
Of war, and tumult, where my voice, My own voice, silly child! was swelling (O how would my wild heart rejoice And leap within me at the cry) The battle-cry of victory!
The rain came down upon my head But barely shelter'd and the wind
Pass'd quickly o'er me — but my mind Was maddening — for 't was man that shed Laurels upon me and the rush, The torrent of the chilly air Gurgled in my pleased ear the crush Of empires, with the captive's prayer, The hum of suitors, the mix'd tone Of flattery round a sovereign's throne.
The storm had ceased - and I awoke Its spirit cradled me to sleep, And as it pass'd me by, there broke Strange light upon me, tho' it were My soul in mystery to steep : For I was not as I had been ; The child of Nature, without care, Or thought, save of the passing scene.
My passions, from that hapless hour, Usurp'd a tyranny, which men
Have deem'd, since I have reach'd to power,
My innate nature be it so:
But, father, there lived one who, then - Then, in my boyhood, when their fire Burn'd with a still intenser glow; (For passion must with youth expire) Even then, who deem'd this iron heart In woman's weakness had a part.
I have no words, alas! to tell The loveliness of loving well! Nor would I dare attempt to trace The breathing beauty of a face, Which even to my impassion'd mind, Leaves not its memory behind. In spring of life have ye ne'er dwelt Some object of delight upon, With steadfast eye, till ye have felt The earth reel · and the vision gone? And I have held to memory's eye One object and but one until
Its very form hath pass'd me by, But left its influence with me still.
'Tis not to thee that I should name
Thou canst not wouldst not dare to think
The magic empire of a flame
Which even upon this perilous brink Hath fix'd my soul, tho' unforgiven, By what it lost for passion - Heaven.
I loved - and O, how tenderly ! Yes! she [was] worthy of all love!
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