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enemy shall not prevail against thee, I will redeem thee from his power.' These, and many more precious promises, were poured in, after a day of distress, wherein I seemed given up to the enemy; but through all, I believe, I did not murmur, and struggled to maintain my confidence. This verse

was applied

'In the furnace God may prove thee,

Thence to bring thee forth more bright;

But will never cease to love thee,

Thou art precious in his sight!'

This seemed too good for me to lay hold of. I am gently dealt with. I now feel so calm and peaceful; not as I used to do,-not joyous, but truly a peace that passeth understanding, worth worlds to possess; and last night it was given me clearly to see, in a way no words can describe, the joy there is in heaven over one sinner that repenteth." taking leave for the night she said "I believe it is the care of my heavenly Father, and the prayers of my friends, that help me through the night." It was remarked, we were sure it was the one, and might be the other also. "Yes," she replied, "for—

'Jesus on th' eternal throne

For sinners intercedes.""

On

In reference to the passage-" The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want," she said—

"Jesus sought me when a stranger,

Wandering from the fold of God;
He to save my soul from danger

Interposed His precious blood;"

adding" This has been my experience."

About this time a note of sympathy from an absent friend was read. She remarked-" How applicable : could not have written that, without having been brought into fellowship with my sufferings; give my love, and say, I have a good hope through grace; I am nothing-nothing! Christ is all! "

As she became more dependent on her attendants, her care and consideration for them increased, lest they should be overdone or inconvenienced; often saying, "I am afraid I shall weary you."

On the evening of the 27th she was very ill. Much of what she communicated cannot be remembered in her own words, but the following is distinctly recollected :

"The Lord has been good to me, very merciful and gracious. O, it was long before he spoke peace to my soul, and it was no wonder. How often his voice sounded in my heart, Hast thou not forgotten me days without number?' O yes,

and I know it. I know myself unworthy of the least of his benefits. Bear with me, for I must speak the praises of Him who has done so much No one knows the agony of spirit that I

for me. endured.

Satan was indeed allowed to buffet me. He was strong,—until a stronger than he came ; and now, to me, he is the strong man bound. O, after a day of great mental and bodily suffering, I might say agony, the precious promise came to me-' The blood of Jesus Christ, his Son, cleanseth from all sin!' All sin, remember; not one or two, but all sin! And then I felt my iniquities were forgiven,-were washed away in the precious blood of the Lamb. O, what peace, what happiness were mine! Mine iniquities blotted out! After that I passed such a delightful night; one sweet promise after another came to remembrance, and I felt they were mine. Since then nothing has been able to take that peace from me; it is a peace which passeth all understanding. It is not of myself I speak; but while I can speak, I must utter the praises of my God, and what He has done for me.

'Not more than others I deserve,

Yet God has given me more! '

I desire to be kept from saying one word that does not come from my heart. All I have been

saying proceeds, not from a natural desire to speak, O no, naturally I am very diffident; but I feel impelled to speak. My great fault has been diffidence. 'The fear of man bringeth a snare,' remember that. When you find you have a word, speak it, and do not think of those around. It does me good to speak of the merciful dealings of the Lord. He has been merciful to me, through Jesus Christ; and when I heard thy sins are forgiven thee,' I felt, come life or come death, all is well, I could give up all of earth. Many think too much of what their neighbours should do or say; this, dear friends, is wrong. Listen to what Christ speaks. He says, What is that to thee? follow thou me!' Christ is all, and in all. My hope of happiness is centred in the great work which He has accomplished."

The following morning a friend called. She repeated the text, "The waters have come up into my soul," and spoke of the wonderful power that was needed to overcome her strong will, adding, "but it has been overcome, and I am quite resigned to whatever may be permitted." Repeating the text "His judgments are a great deep, his ways past finding out," she applied the first part to the work of the Holy Spirit in her soul, and the latter to the circumstance of her being taken thus early

from time to eternity, and said, “I have not had one pain too many; I have not followed cunningly devised fables, but enjoyed refreshing seasons from the presence of the Lord: but these seasons must be waited for. I was once numbered among the strong, but Let no man glory in his strength; let him that glorieth glory in this, that he understandeth and knoweth me, that I am the Lord which exercise lovingkindness, judgment and righteousness in the earth; for in these things do I delight, saith the Lord."" She then addressed a little girl, desiring that she might "do the thing that is right," saying that she would have her reward, and that it would be felt in the secret of the heart.

The following day, she alluded to our late Quarterly Meeting, and listened with interest to a brief account of it, remarking "It is refreshing to me to hear it. I have prized the attendance of our religious meetings, and have felt heavenly dew to descend in them, as upon barren ground. Going to meeting and sitting in a formal manner will avail nothing; there must be an exercise of soul if we expect to profit by them."

During the last two days the beloved sufferer frequently dosed, and had occasional slight wanderings; but even in them the train of thought

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