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have their minds delivered from all worldly concerns, and be the better prepared to approach the Divine Being with acceptance; they prayed, sung hymns, conversed on things appertaining to their soul's salvation, and read the Scriptures. It appeared they durst not acknowledge they had preaching amongst them; yet I was informed this man at times addressed them in their assemblies as a minister. I could not doubt his being a well-concerned man, for whom and his brethren in their circumscribed allotment, I felt tenderly; and I had fresh cause to prize my privileges in being free from those shackles by which they are bound.

love in my mind towards him. I also waited upon the chief magistrate at Hamburgh, some of the burgo-masters, &c., and presented them with the translations of the proposed regulations. The preachers in Hamburgh appeared to be divided into two parties; the one distinguished by the term heterodox, from their not refusing to partake in the diversions going forward on the first-day; the other orthodox, because they protested against such practices, and are zealous for good order. I received a proposal from one of the latter to make me a visit, except I felt at liberty to visit him at his own home. Feeling most disposed to yield to his latter proposition, I proceeded in the course of his observations he said he could Fifth-day, made a call on the head of the give his full assent to the general addresses; Lutheran clergy of Hamburgh; he expressed expressing in a feeling manner, the desire he his full concurrence with the address, saying, felt that each might have their service, say much more depended on the civil authority ing there were laws of long standing, com- than on the clergy, in trying to enforce the manding the strict observance of the sabbath, spirit of it; these might recommend from the which about four years ago were brought into pulpit its contents, and preach against the preview; but some of the ministers are the cause vailing bad habits of the town and neighbourwhy they are not enforced; yet he hoped a hood; still the impressions that might be made reformation would take place, by the sound on the congregation, would be likely to lose of the Gospel being heard again in its purity, their effect, unless the civil power was diligent through the preaching of some young candi- in enforcing the laws, and the inferior officers dates for heaven: we parted affectionately. of the government were better paid, so as not Feeling my mind drawn to make a visit to a to be exposed to bribes, and tempted to comman in Altona, who was considered the prin- promise with evil doers, and sell vice rather cipal of a sect called Christian Friends; hav- than bring it to its just punishment. That the ing procured an interpreter, we proceeded, and principal clergy met occasionally, but as men found him a person very low in the world. He did not always unite in the same judgment, gave us this simple account of their origin. In this frequently prevented their going in a body the beginning of this century a poor shoemaker to lay their grievances before the senate. It was brought to the knowledge of God: in time is also much to be lamented that Hamburgh he became acquainted with a man who was and Altona, so near as they are together, are favoured with the like experience; they regu- not under one government; their different inlarly went home together from their place of terests counteracted the enforcement of the worship, and conversed on the subject the laws, which was the cause of much of the minister had preached upon; after awhile a disorder that prevailed in the burgh, neither third joined them, soon after this others mani-party being willing to sacrifice their temporal fested a desire to partake with them, until interest for the future spiritual welfare of the their number became nearly two hundred. For people. the first ten years they had no settled place to My next call was upon the principal preachmeet in, going from house to house, as they er of what is called St. church; he excould be accommodated, and a merchant who pressed his sorrow there was so much cause joined them built a large room for them to for the observations made in the address; saymeet in. When the police-master had know-ing, the clergy in former years had not done ledge of the use for which this room was intended, he sent for the proprietor, and spoke to him on the subject, but no further notice had yet been taken of it. On my inquiring relative to their time of meeting on first-day, I was informed they only met in the evening at eight o'clock. The reason given for their not meeting in the middle of the day was, to prevent the clergy complaining against them to the police-master, for drawing people from the church; it was said in their meetings they sat awhile in silence, in order that they might

their duty with the sincerity and boldness required of them, as professed overseers and directors of the people; but they became lukewarm and indifferent in these respects, and he hardly knew how the evils now crept in amongst them were to be remedied; that the dance-houses should not be allowed, for it was there the young people's minds were contaminated.

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subject of the girls was brought before the view of the public, and subscriptions already begun for the purpose of establishing a penitentiary, and that a house was in a state of forwardness for the purpose. At our parting, he expressed a hope, that on my return to Pyrmont from Norway, I should be able to observe some improvement in the city.

preter, we proceeded to his residence; where ing me the cheering information, that the he received us courteously. I presented him with the translation of my certificates, which he read with deliberation: from his countenance and the frequent motion of his head, it appeared the care of the Society towards its ministers was approved by him. I also presented him with the address to Hamburgh, to the magistrates, and that to the clergy, which he read whilst we were present, making his I began now to feel as if my service here observations as he went along. Having fin- was nearly come to a close, truly humbled I ished them, he said the contents of the several hope under a grateful sense of the mercies of addresses met his full approval, but observed, my heavenly Father, in thus dealing bountias they were only allowed in the state, they fully with me, making way for me in the had no power to interfere in the government; minds of those in authority and others, when but so far as it was in his power to enforce awakened by a sense of duty to call upon the spirit of the address from the pulpit, he them. Being now got into the eleventh month, would do it; for however we might differ in my friends here think my attempting to reach matters of faith, it is the duty of all minis- Norway to winter will be attended with danters to endeavour, as far as in them lies, to ger, and much bodily suffering. My hoarseenforce whatever contributes to the good of ness and pain at my chest continuing, I at times their hearers, or to the good of society at looked at returning to England to winter, as large; although it yet depended on those that I could not see that it would be right for me hear, whether they would follow the advice to winter here; and proceeded so far as to regiven them. He also said, the law written in quest the advice of my friends at home on the the heart of man or conscience was in unison subject. I felt very desirous, if I must winter with the law of Moses, and was the best guide in Norway, which I had from the first of my to conduct us through the path of life, and leaving home been anxious to avoid, to make that he referred to these to corroborate his the best of my way there, and go by the vespreaching; for after all, he added, preaching sel my friends here had chosen for me, which only has a reference to these guides. We was soon to sail; concluding, as Copenhagen parted in feelings of much affection. Although has been brought before the view of my mind, I hesitated considerably before my mind was as a place at which I must be willing to spend made willing to give up to this visit, conclud-a short time, I might take it on my way back ing my friends at home, if they came to hear to Pyrmont in the spring. But the subject how I had occupied my time of late, would say I had strangely rambled from one priest to another; but now I feel well satisfied in yielding to this pointing of duty, especially as on inquiry it appears this young man's character comports with the sentiments he advanced; that he is called a preacher of new doctrines by the Jews here; and from what I have been able to learn, he is likely by degrees to lead them to a liking for the New Testament.

coming more weightily before me, I thought I clearly saw it would be unsafe for me to return to England, or go by the vessel now in the river bound for Christiana; and that there was no way for me to secure a safe arrival in Norway, but to go by the way of Copenhagen; that my taking Copenhagen on my return, would not be accepted by my Divine Master; and therefore, although the prospect of an overland journey, quite alone, appeared discouraging, unacquainted as I was with the language, currency, and usages of the countries I should have to travel through, and the doctor advised against the attempt from the state of my health, yet as I could see no other way with clearness, I began to make arrangements for my departure.

I again turned my attention to the subject of securing a passage in the vessel bound for Christiana, as it was desirable to avail myself of an agreeable captain and good vessel; the vessels on this passage being mostly what are called crazy vessels; but as a cloud came again over my mind, I endeavoured to leave Sixth-day, 16th of eleventh month, after this matter for the present, and do my best to taking leave of several of my friends, I proclear out, not doubting but that the way I am ceeded to Altona; obtained my passport from to proceed to Christiana will open. I waited the governor, with his good wishes for my on the chief magistrate of Hamburgh, who safety; and taking my last meal with my informed me he had read over the proposed kind friend James Vandersmisson, who had regulations, which he said were good, if they furnished me with provision for my journey, could but be put in practice; but we must not about two o'clock in the afternoon I took my stand still, if we cannot do all we would; giv-seat in the wagon, which was to convey me

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trouble now was how to get my clothes clean, having no others with me. I found I must not expect help from the woman of the house, who looked at me without in any way attempting to lend me assistance to make myself clean, I therefore managed by signs to get into the kitchen, procured some water, and did my best towards cleansing my coat from the grease and soil of the chocolate, drying it by their miserable fire.

to Kiel, the body of which was fixed on the and broke it into small pieces; the chocolate axletrees, and in it was slung a single-horse-poured out at the bottom of my pocket and chaise seat. This was a comfortless convey- through the flap of my coat: my greatest ance to travel in at this season of the year, the weather being extremely cold. My fellow-traveller in the wagon professed to know some English, but it was very little he knew, in addition to which he was so dull of apprehension, that he was no fit companion. While they were waiting for the letter-bags in Hamburgh and Altona, I had to sit in the wagon until it was dark, before we started on our journey notwithstanding this detention was trying, independent of my suffering from Having lost my chocolate, I ordered, by the cold, yet I felt truly thankful when I turned signs, a breakfast, for which I had to wait an my back on this field of labour and inward hour; whilst my breakfast was preparing, I travail, not being conscious of having omitted went over to the post-office, to see that my lugaught that was called for at my hands. This gage was safe; when I observed a person tying I esteemed amongst the many favours my up the bag I had with me with tape; supposing heavenly Father has in mercy vouchsafed to it had become loose, I thought it was kind of dispense during the many solitary weeks I him. After having taken my breakfast, obpassed over in Altona, the retrospect of which serving they were about loading the luggage, affords some support to my mind, when look-I proceeded to see that the whole of mine was ing at the trying journey before me. The night set in very dark, with rain, which beat into our vehicle: after we had pursued our journey a few miles, I perceived we entered a river, and travelled up it or across it about half a mile; soon after we left the river a part of our carriage gave way, which our driver secured by ropes. The darkness of the night was such, that our driver considered it to be unsafe to proceed without a light, he therefore called at a cottage, and procured a lantern; but this was of short duration, the wind and rain were tempestuous, and our lantern being out of repair, the candle would not keep lighted, we were therefore under the necessity of making the best of our way in the dark. Before we reached the end of our first stage, our harness broke, which they had difficulty in mending, so as to get forward with safety. At about ten o'clock we reached Ultzburgh, our first stage, about fifteen English miles from Altona. I had now been in the wagon about ten hours, and felt the need of refreshment being provided with some thick chocolate in a bottle, I procured some milk; but although we halted nearly two hours, all my efforts to have it made hot, proved in vain; I was therefore obliged to be satisfied with a drink of cold milk, and we proceeded. About three o'clock on seventh-day morning, after breaking our harness a few times more, we reached Bramstead, a stage of about fifteen miles further; here our luggage was taken into the post-office: the tavern being opposite, where I found I could procure hot milk, to mix with my bottle of chocolate in my pocket; but through great fatigue I reeled, and struck the bottle of chocolate against the leg of a table,

put in again, when, to my surprise, I found the king's seal was put on the tape, as was also the case with my leather trunk. I took my fellow-traveller to them, pointing to the seals; and by signs he made me understand, I must not attempt to open my luggage. As I was altogether a stranger to the usage of the country, and had no opportunity of inquiring why it was so, and not observing that my fellow-traveller's luggage placed under similar restraint, various were my conjectures as to the cause of it, and what might be the result. The busy enemy now watched his opportunity to improve the various suggestions that presented to my mind, as the cause of my luggage being sealed, and to bewilder and distress me, and to cast me down below hope of escaping being confined in one of their miserable prisons. I remembered the governor and the police-master at Altona informed me, their laws did not allow of distributing books or papers without leave of the police. Having some tracts sent from England, the whole of which I did not feel easy to take with me from Altona, the day before my departure I left some at the guard-house amongst the soldiers, and others I gave away in Altona, a step I had well considered before I attempted to take it: these considerations led me to conclude the circumstance had come to the knowledge of the police-master, and that he had taken offence at it, whereby my luggage was to be overhauled at Kiel.

In the afternoon we made another stage, and reached Ploen: here my fellow-traveller left me; imperfect as I found him in my native language, I felt greatly stripped when we parted: we remained here nearly four hours,

take my departure in this packet, the more the uneasiness of my mind increased, and the more sensible I was made that my present proper place was to remain at Kiel, and trust for a good passage next week; being assured if my remaining here was in the line of Divine appointment, that same power which required my halting, was able to waft me over in the next packet, in as short a time as if I went by the packet to-day, if He sees meet.

weary bones: the keepers of the hotel, I believe, did what they could to make me comfortable; but I wanted more caring for, than I had a right to expect at a hotel. As I did not feel myself equal to go to the residence of the merchant I was addressed to for help, on my first rising this morning I sent to him; he soon made me a visit, and spoke English. I thought he appeared sensible of the care I stood in need of and capable of entering into sympathy with me: he left me, and calling again, put the question to me, was I comfortable? I told him I wanted more quiet than the house afforded, and more of little matters provided for me than I could expect to have where I was, I therefore should be glad to procure private lodgings: he left me, and soon returning, offered me the privilege of making one of his own family. I felt a difficulty to accept of his kind offer; but as I was well assured it was made in great sincerity, and fearing his feelings would be hurt if I refused, I accompanied this my kind friend, Abraham Christian Bower, to his own home. He kindly sent his clerk, who spoke English, with me to the post-office, to see about my luggage. The officer on duty behaved with great civility; I gave him my keys, and after questioning me as to the contents of my luggage, he gave liberty to have it sent to my lodgings; and thus my anxieties respecting it were brought to a close. I soon began to feel myself at home in my new abode, my only regret was, the wife of my kind friend was not acquainted with my native tongue; this regret, she gave me to understand, was great on her part.

being twenty English miles from Kiel; we took in a passenger for Kiel, and changed our carriage, but the change did not add to my comfort, for the curtains that should have defended us from the cold night air, were so torn they afforded us but little shelter. On our arrival at Kiel, I went to observe their movements respecting my luggage, which was put into a room with the rest; it being now three o'clock in the morning, as I supposed the tavern-keepers would be all in bed, and the post-office II therefore laid me down again to rest my found was no place of entertainment, I considered how I should dispose of myself until the tavern-keepers were up: I at length concluded by signs to obtain leave to sit in the wagon until morning. Conversation took place between my fellow-traveller and the post-master, and as they frequently turned round to me, I concluded I was the subject of it; but on what account, I was unable to understand; but hearing them name the merchant, to whom I was directed, I felt cheered, and the more so, when my fellow-traveller, by signs, invited me to follow him to the Packet Hotel. The people were in bed, but he would not leave me until I was safe in the house, and by the bed-side of the son of the hotel-keeper, who spoke English, which was a comfort to me, that I cannot describe. The young man, hearing of my desire to go by the packet, assured me my luggage could be cleared in time; but I considered he did not know under what circumstances it was placed. I request ed to go to bed, which was more desirable than food, although I had been kept on short allowance. As there were persons in the house going by the packet, I requested to be called when they were, and if it appeared best for me to encounter the passage by sea, I would try to do my very utmost. My kind friend Dr. Steinheim, advised my wearing a warm flannel waistcoat next me, which I had not been used to do; I therefore put one on the day I left Altona: the irritation it produced was painful to bear, and it occasioned a rash all over my body; as the eruption increased, the pain in my chest and hoarseness gradually left me, which I esteemed a great favour. I was called with those who were going by the packet, and did my utmost to rouse myself, to give the subject of going all due consideration; but the way for my proceeding was quite shut up, and why I could not tell. I reasoned, that if I met with no other obstruction than my fatigue of body, although it was great, I might regret missing so good a passage as it was likely to be. I also feared, if I let this opportunity slip, and remained at Kiel until the packet sailed again this day week, we might have to beat about for days to make a passage. The more I gave way to a desire to

Second-day, my flesh was so sore and bruised, that I was obliged to keep at home, with my mind exercised towards the Lord, who I believe had required me to make this halt, to preserve me from running before my guide, and to keep me walking answerably to my profession, and the station I was travelling in, as becomes a minister of Jesus Christ.

Third-day, to comply with the request of an invalid, I ventured to make her and her husband a visit; she spoke English well: with them I spent about two hours, to my own, and, I believe, their satisfaction. It would almost appear as if she had previously known of my

path of true self-denial and the daily cross, in these and every other respect; yet there are others amongst us who are sorrowfully departing from the law and those testimonies which we are called upon to hold up to the world." To which she again queried, “ Are these departures mostly with those who have joined your Society by what you call convincement, or such as were born members?" I did not feel myself under difficulty in making a reply, as it is obvious this departure chiefly is to be found amongst those who have had a birth-right: this matter being so far set at rest, another query was brought forward more difficult for me to clear up to her full satisfaction:-" But what does your Society

houses, and dress after the manner of the world, and those who aim at doing great business to get rich because they are covetous? Do your meetings for discipline, as you call them, disown such? which you say is the case with your other disorderly members; for such I consider them, according to the account you have given me of what your principles are, and, if lived up to, will lead to the practice of." It was trying to me to converse so long together, and I was obliged to return home, having done my best to satisfy her inquiring mind; but as her store of inquiry was not yet exhausted, she engaged my company for the next day.

intention of coming to Kiel, and, as such, had been storing up questions to put to me respecting the members of our Society, its practices, and on various religious subjects. Although in my present state of bodily health, I felt unequal to much exertion of this sort, yet so fully convinced was I of the purity of her motives, that I knew not how to refuse doing my best to answer her inquiries. In many respects, the information she had received respecting our principles and practices was very erroneous, but which she acknowledged I had been enabled to clear up to her satisfaction; and that I had removed from her mind sentiments which she had imbibed unfavourable to our religious Society; especially an opinion that we had no regular ministers amongst us. On returning do with those who live, and furnish their me my certificates, she said she had not only read them with attention, but with pleasure, being fully satisfied these reports were not correct, and in observing the watchful care the Society exercises over its ministers: she added, "From the account you have given me of your principles and practices as a Society, it appears to me you come the nearest to the first Christians, of any I have heard of in the present day; but when I was visiting at a watering-place, I observed the professors of the established religion, who called themselves Protestants, attended play-houses, dance-houses, and card-parties, on the sabbath-day; there was also a settlement of some who called themselves Methodists in this place, who protested against these practices of the members of the Establishment; but I observed these Methodists indulged themselves in eating and drinking beyond what I consider true moderation allows, also in dressing themselves, having their houses furnished, and conducting themselves in other respects like the people of the world, aiming at great business to get riches. I also met with some Roman Catholics who appeared to think much of themselves, because of their abstinence and fasting on certain occasions. As I am persuaded you will give me an honest reply, pray tell me how is it with your Society in these respects? Do they make great entertainments, having many dishes on their tables? Are their houses furnished after the manner of the world? Do they love to get money to keep it? Are they covetous, and do not distribute according to their means to those who have need ?"

I felt myself brought into a great strait, as my inquirer looked for an honest answer to her plain questions, and for the moment was reduced to a state of awful silence. I however replied, "I hope I am safe in saying we still have preserved amongst us, as a religious Society, those of whom it may be said, they are endeavouring to be found walking in the

Fourth-day, feeling much debility from my exertion yesterday, I was obliged to keep at home. Fifth-day, being recruited, I spent a short time with my female friend and her husband, endeavouring to satisfy her mind on the various subjects she brought forward. I presented her with Henry Tuke, on Faith, which I expected would furnish fresh work when we met again. Three young men, students, gave us their company, towards whom something began to stir in my mind, which I believe, had I sincerely cherished, would have produced matter for communication. They left me under very uneasy and distressing feelings: at times, I would willingly have requested my female friend to invite them to her house, to afford me an opportunity of relief; but as this proposal had not the sanction of my Divine Master, I found my safety would be in patiently bowing under the secret condemnation I merited, and there let the matter rest, if the way never opened for us to meet again, which never did take place. May I learn more perfect obedience by the things I suffer, is the prayer of my soul! I returned to my comfortable home, satisfied thus far with my detention at Kiel. In the afternoon, accompa nied by my kind landlord, I made a visit to pastor Harms, a zealous, and I believe, pious

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